my christmas

Today is christmas eve, and all im doing today is sitting and rotting on the sofa in front of a tele.
The fact is, knowing that everyone has a plan to celebrate christmas with their love ones just upset me a lil.
I used to believe in the magic and spirit of Christmas but every Christmas seems to successfully make me pour tears instead.
To have a nice and happy christmas for once would really be nice.
To be with the people that are really close and dear to me, instead of people that i barely know and sitting aside smiling like a dumb ass.
To have a good laughter, instead of faking a smile
To have a a lovely but simple dinner, instead of eating with people u're unfamiliar with.

When he asked me am i ok i wanted to tell him so badly how i really feel, that no im not ok actually!
That i wish to have a merry christmas with people whom i love, whom i know..just like anybody else...

But putting all these emotions aside, im more than happy to have him in my life.
It's the best thing that has ever happened to me throughout my 20 years of life by far.
And today he told me "u know sometimes i reli feel like i wanna do my life with u

but dnt tell anyone.. its a secret"..

This sentence was a wonderful Christmas present to me. Nobody knows wat will change with time, but no matter what, even if this sentence will never come true, it still the best and most comforting sentence as a Christmas gift for me =)

Merry Christmas...

u're my reason, my freedom, my love n my life

*our story is beautifull and our love is true*

*I'l always b with u! u can sleep all night with the thought that u have me tomorow and all the days that follows*

Thank u for these beautiful words, it meant more to me than anyone could possibly  know or imagine.

Tonight i shall shut my eyes and fall into a long deep sleep with the most peaceful heartbeat =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank u sunshine!

I love u...

 

 

 

signin' out with love,

Miss L.A

u mean the world to me, sunshine

Every relationship has it's ups and downs, i guess mine's no different as well.

Today i learnt how much insecurities i've given sunshine all these times and it pains me to see that im one of the reason why he's unhappy.

I tried to do all i could possibly do but yet i understand how hard it is for someone to change their long-formed opinion and thoughts about certain things. Of coz i also clearly know that being with a girl like me is the biggest and worst challenge of all...

I realized that my habit of bottling things up is not helping me to forget or let go things that i wanna run away from. It's causing more problem recently than ever.. There r so many things in my heart that i wanna tell him so badly n want him to know but for me to spit my feelings out is just as hard for him to accept im close with my guys frens.

i really wanna tell him, i'd wish badly to have a home with him if future allows it and the christmas day he told me he'd gimme me.Maybe when he hears these from me, he'd laugh of my silly thinkings but the point is that i wish he'd put down his doubts and see through me to realize how important he means to me....

but what can i do to let him know ?

signin' out,

LA

La nuit de la fête des vendanges

24th of Sept was officially the first day of the wain festival in the whole swiss french canton also known as La fête des vendanges.

Unfortunately, lex,mimi n I were so drop dead tired and alex was too wasted, while im busy being sick! But still at midnight we were motivated to head to the festival BY FOOT. Took us about 30mins of walk then it took us another 30mins to squeeze thru' the crowds. Then we decided to go back home after 15mins.hahaha!!!

Yet the thg so special about this day wasn't about the festival. It was about when we were walking to the festival, there were a few drunk youngster moving towards us n wouldnt leave us alone. Before they even approach, mimi held my hand so tight and stand right in fronta me like an eagle protecting it's precious.

His reactions were fast yet careful, always ,making sure that im right behind of him. Then the youngsters were asking weird questions and wanting some stupid answers. So mimi gave it to them, then he directly move quickly with me by his side and hands held tight.

I never felt so safe and secure in my life. To know that feeling when someone really stands up for u,would do anything to make sure u're safe.... It was like i immediately know that this is the man, the one i can relay on when im tired, knowing that i dont hv to pretend to be strong nor that he will never run away ASAP even when im in shit!

That is the kinda man i wan to have a future with, for that la fête des vendanges proves that my  man is definately the Right Man!

signin' out with love,

lizzie anne

Let the sun shine =)

For once in my life, i understand how does it feel to be free and filled with the sweetest happiness deep down inside.When i said free, this freedom is undescribable. Having to find that person that is capable to fill your heart with that very comfort, security and love with a single touch, knowing deep down that u can shut your eyes and have a deep quiet sleep on his shoulders after all these years of struggles, that's what i call a FREEDOM to feel free and calm.

From his love, he made me realise a girl like me doesn't have to be alone, doesn't have to be cold, and doesn't have to face problems alone with a forced smile anymore. For once, i felt free to feel, to be angry, to frust, to smile and to laugh! Just to be myself and stop being afraid of every single step im taking.

At times, things got a lil steamed up between us due to certain jealousy issues, it's neither his fault nor mine. It's just ddifferent ppl , different mind, but the patience to tolerate, to swallow the pride and take a step back that he has shown through these times leads me speechless. He deserves most of my respect for that. I understand that sometimes he's doubting, scared and i just couldn't find the right words to tell him not to worry. It felt like there's so much things i wanna tell him, but the words just couldn't come out in the right way.

All i wanna tell him is that it's his hands i wan to hold onto me, not letting me go;his arms to wrap around me,comforting me; his shoulder for me to lie on when im in joy or crushed; his eyes to look at me,letting me know that he's there no matter what; his face to be the first and last wonderful thing to look at everyday; his tender lips gently touching agaisnt mine;his calm heartbeat as the most beautiful melody for me to listen to; and of coz that amazing smile he has to shine my day and be my encouragement!

Throughout all these years of damages that i've done, he's the only right and utterly beautiful thing that has ever happen to me. For he's the one who brought back my confidence, healed that scar after such a long time, brighten up the smile that i never thought i'd have and drew the most lovely fairy tale in my life =)

struck out friday night

Last friday night was epic!

Started off with a few beers with uncle,bro,a mate n sugar.

After that the fun begins went i met up some other crazy mates as well!

The fun then steamed up when we bumped into Mimi's fren Arturo, Morgan n etc.

From midnight till 3am, the DJ's dropping it hot, some chickas dancing on the top, some fights occured, drunken ass all over and we were busy getting wasted and dancing our ass off!

 

All in all, the night was fantastic n i had fun till d max with my sugar <3



signin' out with loads of love,

LA

Thank u for everythg sunshine

After so many years of hardwork and endurings, i finally get to have my own short holiday during the weekend. I also got my jacket, new Ipod, Headphones and etc. XD

Yet the best part of all was that i get to spend n have an utterly great time with the man i love more than my life, my Mimi.

Thx to Mimi, he fulfilled my long waited wish: 

I dnt need gifts or stuff, just wanna be the happiest girl in the most simplest ways on my special day.

And thank you so much Mimi, for the efforts and tiredness all the way thru.

Thank you for your patience, love and tolerance to me and everything that i've made u put thru.

Thank you for being there to hold me in close when  i needed comfort the most.

Thank you for never letting me go and being there when im wrapped up with problems and troubles.

Thank you for choosing to love and stay with me

Thank you for standing right beside me and reminding me that im not alone anymore.

Thank you for walking this path with me.

Thank you for all the sacrifices you've made for me and the appreciation you've shown.

Thank you for carving the most beautiful bright smile on my darkest days.

Thank you for bringing out the best of me and the willingness of you to be a big part of my complicated life.

A million "thank you" isn't enough to express how grateful i felt and how much i appreciate you. No matter how tired and hard things was, you always do your best for me by being with me in the shortest time possible. Not only in schoolwork problems, friend problems but also family problems that's surrounding me all the time . Yet you never complain anything at all and keep smilling to me, telling all will be all right, dont worry =)

After so many years, you are the first one to fulfilled my biggest yet simplest dream of all. 

Thank you.

This time it's my turn to tell you not to worry. This time im not going anywhere and im always standing a step behind of you, supporting you the whole way thru.

Because only with you and you alone, everything's at it's most simple but also at it's most beauty.

Having you in my life, you've became the reason im beautiful and happy.

Found you in my life, you've became the reason why i look forward to the future.

Thank you, my love, my life, my heart.

Lizzie Anne

my sunshine

My army has officially went to his military repitition. My night was restless and i was wide awake the whole night.

With all the getting use of him being the first person to see before and after my sleep, last night was an absolute torture filled with emptiness. 

For the first time i felt so breatheless and heart wrecking when he takes his steps, turn around and walk away.

I know my depandancy towards him is really serious but i just cant control myself  from needing him and wanting him more!

Though the sun outside is shining bright today, but the sun light within my heart is fading away.

My love,my friend, my heart, my man and my Army....

I'll be right here waiting u to come back home to me.

with love and misses,

Lizzie Anne

Bersih 2.0

Unfortunately dirty politicians destroyed the support of the Malaysian nations on the 09.07.2012.

Brutalitiy and violence by Malaysian police were used on the people during the protesting.

All bloods shed, the life's fade, injuries suffered, discrimination done and lies told, the satu Malaysia nation will remember this injustice of the dirty democracy.

Thus standing ovation to the fat dirty government who try to cover their ass, u just failed your own people! Bravo!

The truth and evidence never lies, shame to Malaysia Government is officially announced around the globe. 

my most beautiful days

These few weeks had been such beauty. 

Puttin aside the fact that im broke but all the spendings were worth it! 

Every single cent spent, every single moment shared , no matter how tired i was, 

My days still ends with the sweetest smile i ever!

Those splendid nights where your pair of eyes were the last thing i see

Those brightful days where your gentle touch were the first thing i felt

Somehow, i wish i could find the right words...

To tell u how i really felt for u and * I Love U* is really just not enough.

Coz in your presence, i smile like an innocent child.

But in your absence, i only felt empty and frown =(

U said im your beautiful girl, but lil do u know, u are the reason for this beauty!

No only u gave me confidence, security, warmth but u showed me, a girl like me can have a fairy tale and a love worth holding on for !

My man...

My army...

My love...

My sunshine...

My guardian angel...

My all....

wasted nights

After the final element machine subject, we headed to the lake in NE! Great fun and great laugh with everyone and we did a BBQ! too bad i weren't able to jump into the lake but there's always another time! plus i had my sugar accompanying me rolling and wrestling around the ground =) after a lil drink and BBQ, sugar and i went back to his place to get a coffee before we went party up coz we were too tired.lol. Then i headed back to chx-de-fonds n he stayed in NE. How i wished soooooooo much to say YES I WANT U TO COME WITH ME. but i just cant be selfish at all! So, Dani, Daniel, Lea n me went party together! tho' we were just four person but it was stil uptight! went to Coyote to get drinks and hit some darts then at 2am we attacked Podium! dancing our night off with all the cool music till we were absolutely dead. believe or not we almost got into fights 4 times that night but im glad everythg ended well n safe.

Then the next morning, i woke up half drunk still with body ache all over and disturbing ma bro =P  In the evening, bro n I went to the train station to pack up some beers, as a warm up before i head to some real damage with sugar in the evening. hehe. At 12.25am, met up with sugar after he's job then we went to my favourite bar Coyote again but unfortunately the bar closed at 2am so we had no place to go other than Podium club again. The musics were not "wow" coz it's House music whole night. but we still dance till we drop! had a lil cokeRhum (awesome taste, strongly recommended ) n strawberry vodka Shots (strongly advise not to order coz too sweet n zero effect). After enjoying some moves we headed back to my place to finish my one last beer!

That night was just fantastic, both of us were quite wasted n i lost my phone eventually. But the best part was the last person i see before i close my eyes was Him n the first person to see when i open my eyes was also my sugar! Having him close, wrap around his arms, i just fell asleep with the sweetest smile n the best security ever!

Next morning suprisingly we woke up quite early, n lucky for me a sweet n lovely lady found my PHONE in the garden n called sugar to go get it! thank u so much lady! n my sugar too of coz! Then we went back to bed till 1pm, we had breakfast together n he went back to spend time with his grandpa while i go to visit my grandma. That's all folks!

*deuces*

Lizzie Anne

wooo! really not in an exam mood

counting down to 3 days then mega grand finale STARTS!!! but unfortunately i have absolute negative motivation =="

Parhaps that's becoz my mind is already way ahead looking forward to the SUMMER HOLS! 

Gosh i just hope the exam mood would turn on at least tmr so i can stress myself out a lil to be more motivated! TOLONG~~~~

deuces...

LA

our lil break-away time

Duuring the 4 days school holidays, we went to Tessin and spent some splendid time together!

 this is where we r standing between Italy and Switzerland

After going for a walk and crossing thru a freezing river

 When the both of us are revising our material

 Earlier breakfast where i just washed my hair

I love it when my man's holding me close <3

 a lil family photo shoot!

 My favourite picture of all!

 HAHAHA! My cutie and banana!

when we were at the waterfall

baby squeezing banana in my mouth

Un jour trés simple mais trop bien !!

yesterday was a funny and lovely day =) At school, i was so hyped up due to too much caffine intake.
Ater school, im still hyped up and hungry. So i went to attack Cheeseburger at McDo with my darling.
Then we headed to the Scala cinema to watch Thor in 3D ! Loved the special effects and the story line! well done!

Yet the most suprising thing is that there were only 3 other people and the both of us in the whole cinema! Amazing really ! After movie time, i went back home and darling too. Did a little family album card for mum's birthday gift and then i chilled in front of the TV and sms darling.

He said" i was nvr so in love with someone before. Tu compte vraiment enormément pour moi!". My night ended with a biggy smiley on my face =)

My chinese and me <3

With love,
LA

Today is just another ordinary day but with extra bonus which is mum went to aunty's place any staying over till wednesday!

 which means PEACE AND QUEIT for a few days... hhhhhhhhaaaawwww.. stress free and relaxation finally!

 Other than that, im just being lazy the whole day and chilling.

 Around 2am in the morning was online talking with baby who's at Paris for the weekend. Listening to him smilling and laughing really made my day!

As for now, i can get a good night sleep with a sweet dreams!

Good nightyyy~~~~!

signin out with love,

LA

that how lucky i feel =)

 

I would give up everything 

Before I'd separate myself from you 

After so much suffering 

I've finally found a man that's true 

I was all by myself for the longest time 

So cold inside 

And the hurt from the heart it would not subside 

I felt like dying 

Until you saved my life 

I would give you everything 

There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do 

To ensure your happiness 

I'll cherish every part of you 

Because without you beside me I can't survive 

I don't wanna try 

If you're keeping me warm each and every night 

I'll be all right 

Cause I need you in my life 

Thank God I found you 

I was lost without you  

My every wish and every dream  

Somehow became reality 

When you brought the sunlight  

Completed my whole life 

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude 

Cause baby I'm so thankful 

I found you 

See I was so desolate 

Before you came to me 

Looking back I guess it shows 

that we were destined to shine 

After the rain to appreciate 

And care for what we have 

And I'd go through it all over again 

To be able to feel this way

my easter holidays

after four months of non stop stressing, we get to enjoy 1 week of holidays.

during the 1 week holiday, i happen to fall sick the whole week.

but in return, i get to move into a bigger apartment, enjoy party's fun and having great time with my baby.

all in all, my holidays are kinda crappy since im stil sick, but it was still outstanding in a special way =)

Happy Easter!!

with love,

LA

Ma chance!xoxo

Je te merci de m'avoir accompagné le jeudi et le vendredi passé. Même si c'était deux jours seulement, mais de pouvoir les passé avec toi était juste magnifique. t'es le meilleure mon coeur!! Je t'aime et je t'adore! Je me sens trop chanceux de t'avoir dans ma vie! 

lizzie anne

i love u but i can live without u

Today i realised how much i love u but i also realised i've grown up and that i can live without u in my life. It's the first time i felt really broken-hearted to see what were your reactions after telling u that if *certain thg* happens, i'd leave just like that without any hesistations. Im so sorry if that hurts u but u have no idea how much it hurts me more to tell u the truth and to see u feeling down but i have to tell u. I wanted so much to be like i was before not minding anything and accept everything but that would be a lie coz i know if im like that it means i wouldn't be treating the relationship seriously at all and everything will just end up like all the puppy love i have had. Eventually, being with u changed all of that. I've taken things deeper than i can imagine and more serious than u can know coz i finally realised that i've already given my whole heart and world to u and that i love u.

This will also be the first time i'll say this:
If anything were to happen to our relationship in the future, please.... let's just stay as the closest strangers.

But for now, let's just enjoy what we have and thank u so much for loving me too =)



signin' out with love,
LA

Just someone

Few days ago have been quite a rough n tough time at home. The noises and the atmosphere were filled with anger and arguements all the time. Those days were the days where home is the last place i'd wanna be at. I'd rather stay overnight in my school library than to get drag into the suppressing pressure.  Yet lucky for me, someone was there to assure that i've did everything possible with all my might to make sure everyone's have and good. That meant so much to me.

Sometimes, when people have an arguement due to friendship, u'd turn to family. But when it comes to family, not everyone can turn to friends,only a certain someone effortlessly knows what's the right thing to do or say. I have one hell of a luck to have that someone who's shoulders are always there and knows the way to my smile =)

I hope everyone can find that someone in their lifes coz these people are real keepers in your life and worth every single sacrifice.

The perfect apple to my eyes

In me, i feel fear of approaching you, but in you, i find the courage of loving you.

For the ups and downs in life, u were always there to make my life rife.

Though i know the possible of a cruel risks, but i'd brush away these thoughts with a whisk.

Coz all i know what we have now is real, the rest let's leave it in the future to be deal.

Thank u so much for being with me through these horrible days!

Thank u so much for all the support u've shown, the big hugs u've gave and the jokes u've cracked!

Thank u so much for telling me that i've done perfectly my best!

Thank u so much for looking me in the eye and say that u love me for everything that i am and not!

Thank u so much for never saying "no"when i needed your help!

Thank u so much for letting me know that u are happy and enjoys every single moment being with me!

signin' out with much love

LA

my first drunken vomit

Last Friday i officially broke my alcohol record and vomitted =P Having an empty stomach, refilling the vodka every half and hour, and mixing all kinds of vodka into one shot really wiped me out n spinned me hard! Yet good times,laugh n fun were not missed even i was drunk! thx to my girls n my baby that made sure im able to reach home and collapse! 

 liz,emma,lea

 when im drunk with my man

my man held me up to make sure i dont collapse =)

All in all, although the empty stomach filled with different mixed alcohol and vodka really made me feel uncomfortable the next morning, but at least i had a fantastic time and it was also the first time i felt let loose and care free. 

Peace out,

LA