my early gift from Santa

Most of the times things happen unexpectedly when u expect less... n this week was just so sweet to me i couldnt even find the right words to describe! though M was feeling well these 2 days but today we manage to meet up at his place. It was quite a travel n i was really tired but yet i still made it to his house to spend a little time with him before he leave to Paris for Christmas <3

The more i spend time with him, the more i adore him n his kisses. Every "hello" kiss was just as sweet as ever, The hot chocolate he prepared for me today taste sweeter too! being held n holding him in my arms while watching The Town was *the moment*! just sitting on his comfy sofa! simoly as it may be, it was just the perfect relationship that i've longed for. n i was absolutely over the moon when i heard him say " je suis avec ma copine maintenant" ! woohooo!!!

Not only Santa made my wish come true, but he also gave me a strong, smart,tall,handsome n gentle man to be with! n half asian!! n the perfect relationship that's not only my dream relationship, it also manage to bring out the best in me that i feel so happy n a darling that helps me in my studies as well... whom my mom adores on the other hand. too bad myhands were to busy surrounding him that i cudnt take any picture tho... but still memories r alwys better =)

hopefully everythg will just continue smoothly

Just an old photo of us.

Liz

Im too tired to sleep now

been working non stop recently for a month now. Eventually the school has become more of my house now. i spend most of my time stucked there n the only time i spend at home is during bedtimes. Life in the first year can be describe as horribly busy that i can barely have a life or a pause button. Sometimes i just feel like collapsing right away or fall into a deep sleep. Go to bed at 4am and wake up at 7am everyday is the worst feeling ever n i can barely feel anythg at all... Im just looking forward to the holidays soon. 1 paper burning in Hell, 3 more to go still...

Yes Im Cold Hearted!

hate d word watever, dislike d way u make me feel disrespected at times n yet shit alwys happen! being far is alrdy a fucked up situation n now shit adds in.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh* God u shud hv made me a  creature with no heart n of metal. 

first time

lan li.. recently been staying back at school from 8am till 7pm.. including weekends! si pek kut lat.. looking back from who i was last time n who i am right now is such a drastic change! feel sorta porud with myself now =P

it's all about love

Today didnt reli start off well due to stomachache, eventually i have to be absent for my math test today. So as i was sitting on the sofa with my lappy on my sofa, i've read about a young boy back in KL commited suicide recently for his beloved girlfriend. He said that he loved her so much even till the moment of his death, left a note n then jump of a 10++ floor building when it strucked midnight. Being only 4 months with a girl who treats him cold really beats all the efforts and loves that his family have had for him in all their lives. The boy is so bewitched by his stupidity that he actually forgot to just stop for a moment and give things a rational thought. Life was never suppose to be easy nor a fairy tale.Relationship wasnt never meant to go smoothly like the cream of the crops. Pain was meant to be bare and faced.. Sadly that's life. but to die coz of a break up? Seriously not cool! n a utterly rubbish way to die. So many people are begging and desperately struggling hard just to survive a day through while this dumb ass waste not only the efforts of his family, his future, n also a precious life that those childrens n people out there would kill to have. Rather to know such physco  in the future, i'd rather be singled out really. I may sound cold blooded mb that's bcoz i dont have what people would usually call a real life relationship.. I dont know how it really feels like to have an open rship  where u could do whatever u want nor what to hope n expect in my relationship. But i do know one thing family comes first, count your breathe as a blessing and never put ur all in a relationship (especially when u dont see any future in it) .

Yet still, may u rest in peace,mate!


liz