my strength,my confidence and my amour

These few weeks have been complicated.

There were ups and downs, arguements and our childish attitude issues.

 There was even once, due to misunderstandings,

We didn't even talk much and we were  very distance.

Even if im just sleeping right next to u, but u would not even touch me at all..

For the whole night, i felt cold than usual ,restless and empty.

I wanted to hold u and i wanted even more for u to hold me yet u did not.

At least the next morning we tried to talked..

And thank God we realised it was just a stupid and silly misunderstanding

But to me all those dont matter even the slightliest bit!

What meant to me and comfort me the most,

was that finally u holg me tightly and closely into ur arms

You were finally willing to touch my face and wiped my tears!

i know sometimes we have our differences in character or attitude or thinkings,

But there's one and the most important thing we have in common,

is that no matter what happen to one of us, or between us,

we'll stand by right beside each other.

Thank u for being so supportive and trying to motivate me

Most of all thank u for believing in me when i have lost hope myself

Je t'aime tant mimi!

Désolée. Des fois jcomprends que jsuis assez difficile et emotionellement fiable,

mais t'es toujours a côté de moi, me supporter

Merci pour tout les chose que t'as fait et sacrifié pour moi

Comme je t'avais dis, jsuis à toi pour toujour, mon amour!

My valentine

" i just have to see you, and each time i do,

 i know i wanna spend the rest of my life with you, my love"..

 

As naive as it seems , after knowing this, i felt like the happiset girl in the world.

Im not the only one who has the same thought anymore now.

After trying to look for my own right reason to smile and to live, I finally found it.

For once i felt alive and so over the moon!

Though this year's valentine we have to celebrate separately in different country,

but he'll always be my special valentine.

Always...

And for those couples out there, i wish all of u a happy St.Valentine's Day.

May all love birds have a memorable and wonderful valentine =)

With much love,

Lizzie Anne

my christmas

Today is christmas eve, and all im doing today is sitting and rotting on the sofa in front of a tele.
The fact is, knowing that everyone has a plan to celebrate christmas with their love ones just upset me a lil.
I used to believe in the magic and spirit of Christmas but every Christmas seems to successfully make me pour tears instead.
To have a nice and happy christmas for once would really be nice.
To be with the people that are really close and dear to me, instead of people that i barely know and sitting aside smiling like a dumb ass.
To have a good laughter, instead of faking a smile
To have a a lovely but simple dinner, instead of eating with people u're unfamiliar with.

When he asked me am i ok i wanted to tell him so badly how i really feel, that no im not ok actually!
That i wish to have a merry christmas with people whom i love, whom i know..just like anybody else...

But putting all these emotions aside, im more than happy to have him in my life.
It's the best thing that has ever happened to me throughout my 20 years of life by far.
And today he told me "u know sometimes i reli feel like i wanna do my life with u

but dnt tell anyone.. its a secret"..

This sentence was a wonderful Christmas present to me. Nobody knows wat will change with time, but no matter what, even if this sentence will never come true, it still the best and most comforting sentence as a Christmas gift for me =)

Merry Christmas...

u're my reason, my freedom, my love n my life

*our story is beautifull and our love is true*

*I'l always b with u! u can sleep all night with the thought that u have me tomorow and all the days that follows*

Thank u for these beautiful words, it meant more to me than anyone could possibly  know or imagine.

Tonight i shall shut my eyes and fall into a long deep sleep with the most peaceful heartbeat =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank u sunshine!

I love u...

 

 

 

signin' out with love,

Miss L.A

u mean the world to me, sunshine

Every relationship has it's ups and downs, i guess mine's no different as well.

Today i learnt how much insecurities i've given sunshine all these times and it pains me to see that im one of the reason why he's unhappy.

I tried to do all i could possibly do but yet i understand how hard it is for someone to change their long-formed opinion and thoughts about certain things. Of coz i also clearly know that being with a girl like me is the biggest and worst challenge of all...

I realized that my habit of bottling things up is not helping me to forget or let go things that i wanna run away from. It's causing more problem recently than ever.. There r so many things in my heart that i wanna tell him so badly n want him to know but for me to spit my feelings out is just as hard for him to accept im close with my guys frens.

i really wanna tell him, i'd wish badly to have a home with him if future allows it and the christmas day he told me he'd gimme me.Maybe when he hears these from me, he'd laugh of my silly thinkings but the point is that i wish he'd put down his doubts and see through me to realize how important he means to me....

but what can i do to let him know ?

signin' out,

LA

La nuit de la fête des vendanges

24th of Sept was officially the first day of the wain festival in the whole swiss french canton also known as La fête des vendanges.

Unfortunately, lex,mimi n I were so drop dead tired and alex was too wasted, while im busy being sick! But still at midnight we were motivated to head to the festival BY FOOT. Took us about 30mins of walk then it took us another 30mins to squeeze thru' the crowds. Then we decided to go back home after 15mins.hahaha!!!

Yet the thg so special about this day wasn't about the festival. It was about when we were walking to the festival, there were a few drunk youngster moving towards us n wouldnt leave us alone. Before they even approach, mimi held my hand so tight and stand right in fronta me like an eagle protecting it's precious.

His reactions were fast yet careful, always ,making sure that im right behind of him. Then the youngsters were asking weird questions and wanting some stupid answers. So mimi gave it to them, then he directly move quickly with me by his side and hands held tight.

I never felt so safe and secure in my life. To know that feeling when someone really stands up for u,would do anything to make sure u're safe.... It was like i immediately know that this is the man, the one i can relay on when im tired, knowing that i dont hv to pretend to be strong nor that he will never run away ASAP even when im in shit!

That is the kinda man i wan to have a future with, for that la fête des vendanges proves that my  man is definately the Right Man!

signin' out with love,

lizzie anne

Let the sun shine =)

For once in my life, i understand how does it feel to be free and filled with the sweetest happiness deep down inside.When i said free, this freedom is undescribable. Having to find that person that is capable to fill your heart with that very comfort, security and love with a single touch, knowing deep down that u can shut your eyes and have a deep quiet sleep on his shoulders after all these years of struggles, that's what i call a FREEDOM to feel free and calm.

From his love, he made me realise a girl like me doesn't have to be alone, doesn't have to be cold, and doesn't have to face problems alone with a forced smile anymore. For once, i felt free to feel, to be angry, to frust, to smile and to laugh! Just to be myself and stop being afraid of every single step im taking.

At times, things got a lil steamed up between us due to certain jealousy issues, it's neither his fault nor mine. It's just ddifferent ppl , different mind, but the patience to tolerate, to swallow the pride and take a step back that he has shown through these times leads me speechless. He deserves most of my respect for that. I understand that sometimes he's doubting, scared and i just couldn't find the right words to tell him not to worry. It felt like there's so much things i wanna tell him, but the words just couldn't come out in the right way.

All i wanna tell him is that it's his hands i wan to hold onto me, not letting me go;his arms to wrap around me,comforting me; his shoulder for me to lie on when im in joy or crushed; his eyes to look at me,letting me know that he's there no matter what; his face to be the first and last wonderful thing to look at everyday; his tender lips gently touching agaisnt mine;his calm heartbeat as the most beautiful melody for me to listen to; and of coz that amazing smile he has to shine my day and be my encouragement!

Throughout all these years of damages that i've done, he's the only right and utterly beautiful thing that has ever happen to me. For he's the one who brought back my confidence, healed that scar after such a long time, brighten up the smile that i never thought i'd have and drew the most lovely fairy tale in my life =)