Every relationship has it's ups and downs, i guess mine's no different as well.
Today i learnt how much insecurities i've given sunshine all these times and it pains me to see that im one of the reason why he's unhappy.
I tried to do all i could possibly do but yet i understand how hard it is for someone to change their long-formed opinion and thoughts about certain things. Of coz i also clearly know that being with a girl like me is the biggest and worst challenge of all...
I realized that my habit of bottling things up is not helping me to forget or let go things that i wanna run away from. It's causing more problem recently than ever.. There r so many things in my heart that i wanna tell him so badly n want him to know but for me to spit my feelings out is just as hard for him to accept im close with my guys frens.
i really wanna tell him, i'd wish badly to have a home with him if future allows it and the christmas day he told me he'd gimme me.Maybe when he hears these from me, he'd laugh of my silly thinkings but the point is that i wish he'd put down his doubts and see through me to realize how important he means to me....
but what can i do to let him know ?
signin' out,
LA
